february bookstand

I actually have a new-to-me physical bookstand to celebrate this month! I was having a bit of an issue, because I kept picking up books at various sales and having them handed down or gifted to me—and then I would place them in one of the piles, or start a new pile. My LSH suggested that one solution would be to stop buying used books, but that's just crazy talk, even if the wall on my side of the bed did look like this:

And my poor nightstand was in even more trouble:

Obviously I couldn't really see what I had. From time to time a pile would fall over and I would think "Oh! I forgot I had this book! This looks really good!" but then I would restack the pile and forget about it all over again.

It has been my experience that a good bookshelf is hard to find. I finally came across this one at a antique store in Quakertown, and picked it up when I went to get the finished pelts. It needed a little TLC.

An afternoon outside with a little wood refinishing creme and touch up marker did some of the work, but it really came into its own once I filled it up with books.

So onto the ones that I actually read this month! Only one from my actual bookstand but at least I am reducing the backlog a little. Curiously enough, all of the books are memoirs, in which the author's relationship (or lack thereof) with her mother and/or stepmother figure prominently. My monthly reading seems to gravitate to a theme without my consciously intending one.

Half Broke Horses, by Jeannette Walls
Highly recommend. I had read this when it was first published, and borrowed the audio book for our trip to and from Lake Placid as I knew the tale was suitable for younger ears. The boys, especially Secondo, enjoyed it. Lilly Casey Smith is a fascinating character and the book provides a great insight into living conditions in the Southwest in the first half of the twentieth century.

The Glass Castle, by Jeannette Walls
Highly recommend. I had read (and been shocked by) this book about the author's unorthodox and austere childhood. Half Broke Horses is the story of the author's grandmother, and I always meant to re-read The Glass Castle in light of the backstory provided in Half Broke Horses (published second); I decided to strike while the memory of the audio book was still warm. The actions of Walls' parents remain inexcusable, but her mother's behavior makes more sense when viewed against her upbringing. Lilly Casey Smith was a tough, practical woman; unfortunately, that practicality became twisted in odd ways in her daughter Rosemary (Walls' mother).

Yarn: Remembering the Way Home, by Kyoko Mori
Highly recommend. Mori is a lyrical author, and I enjoyed the way she tied together her relationship with fiber arts to her own life story—from her childhood inability to knit mittens, taught in preparation for wife and motherhood in Japan, to her use of spinning and weaving to provide a social framework for her in her adopted country.

Falling Leaves: the Memoir of an Unwanted Chinese Daughter, by Adeline Yen Mah
Recommend. A moving tale of a woman finding her place in the world with very little help from her family and awful mistreatment from her stepmother (no Disney character had a patch on this woman!), set against the backdrop of twentieth-century Chinese history.

Goal for next month: two books from the bookshelf, though I am not sure what I will do if I manage to empty it out entirely.

acer cardigan

I started this sweater just after the Christmas madness, and finished it up with a concentrated effort today to meet my end-of-February deadline.

In addition to misplacing the sleeves for a bit, I faced other challenges with this sweater, most notably the set-in sleeve construction, but I managed to work my way through with minimal problems.

I am well pleased with how it turned out. Maybe I will even get a little use out of it before spring is officially upon us. All the sunshine fooled me today. I laid the sweater outside to dry in a bit of wishful thinking, but it was still damp when I put it on for modelling purposes. It will have to finish the drying process compliments of the wonders of central heating.

(The photos were taken by Secondo, after a bit of arm-twisting and reminders not to get a pickup truck or garbage can in the background. I was very pleased when I saw the results!)

summer's last gasp

I knew our tastes from last summer were nearing an end when I brought up this last bag of frozen blueberries a couple of weeks ago:

Sure enough, a few raids by my youngest son, who eats frozen blueberries by the bowlful, and I found this sad little remnant on the counter two days ago:

Note to self: freeze a few more flats next year, so we have a chance of making it to almost-June and restocking again.

I searched the freezers in vain for an overlooked bag, with no luck, but I did happen upon this bag of treasure:

My smart friend Marta had shared her trick: she freezes rinsed plum tomatoes whole, and then just blanches/defrosts them at the same time in boiling water before adding them to sauces or other dishes to lend a hint of summer flavor. These ended up being the only tomatoes we managed to preserve in any form, as our plants failed long before it was time to harvest for tomato sauce.

As is often the way with a different routine, I completely forgot we had put aside these tomatoes. Now we have a last little bit of summer's flavor to tide us over these next few months!

winter sports

It was so warm here yesterday—in the sixties—that it was hard to believe that a short week ago, we were in Lake Placid, doing some of this:

And watching a heck of a lot of this:

We had gone this weekend specifically to watch the two-person bobsled World Championships; we saw quite a few Olympians. It was great fun hiking up the mountain to the starting point, listening to all the different languages and screaming like heck for every team as they took off:

Of course we had to do this on the Olympic 400m oval in the center of town, right in front of the high school:

Three of us even tried out this, on frozen Lake Mirror—a surprisingly smooth ride, though a bit pungent:

But my favorite was this one:

Light snow was falling as we tromped on trails at Paul Smith's College on rented snowshoes. It was completely magical, and a lovely way to finish up our weekend away.

laying to rest

The member of the family most profoundly affected by Charlie's death was Dusty. His normal shadow personality has been amplified; he is beyond clingy at the moment. It's understandable, as he met Charlie when he was 12 weeks old and didn't spend much time apart from him since then. We suspected that it was even harder on him since he hadn't had a chance to see Charlie's body. From his perspective, Charlie had simply vanished.

So when the vet called yesterday to see if we wanted to bury the body, instead of sending it to be cremated, the choice was easy, if for no other reason than to offer Dusty the chance for some sort of understanding on the matter. (We were also very glad that Charlie could return in the end to the farm he had loved.) The boys willingly dug a neat and substantial hole in a little glen after school yesterday, and my LSH and I picked him up this morning from the vet's office.

Dusty took his time sniffing and examining the body. From time to time he would come to my LSH or me for reassurance, but he returned several times and we could almost see the wheels turning as he worked his way through the experience. When he was finished, we used the hand-sewn fabric bag so thoughtfully given to us by the vet, and tucked his John Deere collar, which he had worn for so many years, in with him. Charlie was always happy to have his collar put back on if it was taken off for any reason, as if he appreciated that it stamped him as belonging to us. It seemed right that it stayed with him.

Out in the sun this morning, while my LSH and I filled in the hole with the birds chattering away and a light breeze whispering through the still-bare branches, I thought about what an apt phrase "laid to rest" is. There is something cathartic and calming about the process—it has more than a whiff of the primal about it, and it must speak to some deep-seated need for us to bring a life full circle. Even in digging the hole, the boys seemed to take comfort in the act of preparing a final resting place; they had taken great care with the job.

How apt, on Ash Wednesday of all days, to reflect: "Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return."

charlie

When we first moved out here to the country (such as it exists in NJ), I was unnerved by the relative isolation and quiet. From a small town where we could reach out our dining room window and almost touch our neighbor's house, it was quite a change to not even be able to see a neighbor's house from ours. I lasted two months and then insisted that we needed another set of ears around. Specifically, we needed a dog.

To this point in our marriage, we had been cat people, which suited a more transient and citified lifestyle. Now, we were in dog country. My mother-in-law had a lab that we were fond of; I was partial to the idea of a rescue; and my LSH wanted a female, preferably black. We started scouring petfinder.org for black female labs, but I came across a face that caught my eye: a male golden retriever/Brittany spaniel cross, somewhere between three and five years old.

My LSH was bemused. "Really? That dog? That has to be one of the ugliest dogs I've ever seen!"

Primo, then age 6, saw the picture differently. "That's it. That's our dog." We pointed out that we wouldn't know until we visited him at the rescue, but he was undeterred. "Nope! I know he's our dog."

When we went to the kennel and they let Charlie out to meet us, he ran right to our side and sat down as if he knew as well. The fosters were surprised; they claimed he hadn't had that reaction to anyone else. True or not, he came home with us. He marched right up to the front door as if he already lived in the place.

Primo reading to Charlie, 2003

Secondo & Charlie, 2004

As with all dogs, Charlie had his pros and cons. He was an inveterate garbage hound, and until his hips weakened, a committed counter surfer as well. He was a terrible leash puller, and broke Primo's finger before Primo learned that you never, ever, wrap a dog's leash around your hand. He did not tolerate strange dogs anywhere near the farm, much to the disappointment of people who wanted to bring their dogs to visit and run around.

Raiding the tomato sauce leftovers, 2006

But he was a good and loyal dog to our family. He never wandered off the farm. Once he was here, it was home. He did a regular patrol of the perimeter, every night, to make sure that no undesirables got the wrong idea. He was a great front door alarm, if perhaps a little too enthusiastic, but unfailingly kind to friends and family, especially kids, though he would steal food out of their hands if they were a little too inattentive.

At Terzo's high chair, 2004

For reasons unknown, he decided I was his person. Until he could no longer negotiate the stairs, he slept under or next to my side of the bed. He pined for me when I was gone, waiting near the front window until I returned. If I was out working in poor weather, he stayed out with me, at least in his younger days. Wherever I was in the house, he was close by. He hated when I cleaned as he had to keep moving around; he was much happier when I was sitting in one place working on some project or another.

Snoozing while I spun, 2005

We got Dusty a little over three years ago, because it seemed that Charlie was approaching the end of his days. He had lost interest in his food and other joys, but he rallied after Dusty arrived. His contempt for Dusty—though he was never outright mean to Dusty, Dusty kowtowed to Charlie as the alpha dog—revived his interest in food and toys, if for no other reason than to keep them away from Dusty. They eventually enjoyed a companionship of sorts, and relied on each other in subtle ways.

Dusty's arrival in 2008;

Charlie was NOT amused

This past year, though, Charlie had been more markedly slowing down. His back hips were getting weaker, and he had trouble getting up and down stairs. His breathing had become more labored due to incurable laryngeal paralysis, and he spent most of his time dozing the hours away. His eyesight and hearing were obviously dimmer. He still greeted his meals with great enthusiasm, however, and sounded the alarm every time Dusty alerted him to someone at the door. We knew his time was growing short, but he hadn't given us any definitive sign that it was up.

Christmas Day 2011;

still interested in what Santa left in his stocking

We departed for a long weekend this past Thursday evening. On Friday afternoon, I received a frantic call from our friend Val, who was graciously pet-sitting. Charlie had collapsed outside shortly after she let him out that afternoon. She was stunned, as he was his usual self that morning. She managed to get him into her truck and to our wonderful vet, but it was obvious to all: he was at the point of no return, and it was time to let him go.

I will always regret that I wasn't there with him, to tell him what a good dog he had been to us. Rest in peace, my devoted friend.

before and after

This is such a wonderful result, I had to share. We had purchased this chair at an auction about 15 years ago, for $35 if memory serves. The reason for the cost was obvious.

We hauled it around with as we moved to four different houses. Every time we moved it, my LSH would question why we were paying to move trash, and I kept pointing to the woodwork and insisting that it had potential.

About a month ago, we finally got rid of the puppy-chewed couch and loveseat set in our living room. (I am still mourning the loveseat, as it was the perfect knitting spot, but that's another matter.) We replaced them with a single couch, which left a bit of hole. We dragged the old armchair up from the basement, and sent it back to the furniture store with the deliverymen.

The transformation was amazing.

The wood turned out to be mahogany. The restoration man estimated the age of the chair at about 100 years old, give or take a decade. If anyone reading this has any more information about its age or style, we would love to hear it! All we know is that it is at least 15 years old, and we are very pleased with the end result.