few words

It has been super hard for me to blog this summer. In fact, as may be increasingly obvious to anyone who has had any sort of interaction with me, it has been super hard for me to do much of anything this summer. We received difficult news about someone very near and dear to us early in the season, and it has had me in a funk most of the time, the sort of funk where everyday things seem kinda pointless, because why bother if the world is going to act like this? I want to rage and scream and cry, but instead have ended up in an ineffective stupor.

I feel self-indulgent even talking about my reaction because it is not without a degree of selfishness. My story is nowhere near as difficult as hers, though certainly her struggles are deeply felt by all of us that love her and have been honored and blessed to have her in our lives all these years. But my reaction is what it is, and it has become futile for me to deny it. Part of me argues, what kind of person would I be if I did?

So today I only have to offer these few explanatory words for those who have wondered and been worried. If you are so inclined, a prayer for comfort and healing for her would be appreciated. At this point, I myself don't have too much else to offer.